The Comeback… for real
It’s been a while…
“I never dreamt of success. I worked for it.”
I know. So here’s the tea. I’m a really private person. Oddly enough, as private as I am, I have been blogging about my journey through motherhood. Interestingly enough, I’ve been able to share the intimacy of this journey while still maintaining my privacy. So, in me subscribing to this life of privacy, I decided approximately a year and a half ago to go back to school and tell no one about it. The only people who I felt the need to share this with were my village; the people I absolutely needed to support me in this journey with my toddler, my administrators and a sprinkling of people who I worked closely with. I did not share on instagram and certainly not here because I just wanted to complete my program and then come back and say “I did it!”
I also was under the impression that I would continue to blog through school. I had imagined myself to be a full time toddler mom, full time teacher, part time student, part time intern AND still effortlessly find time for blogging! It is safe to say that I was insane for thinking that way. I tried hard to keep the Squarespace tab as active as the other ten that were open, yet, as the program progressed I had found it increasingly difficult to maintain my commitment to typing up a narrative that summed up my experiences as a mom while simultaneously reading research, scouring texts for quotes and crafting compelling essays that would appeal to my professors to be able to maintain my average. So, something had to fall off. As I disappeared from the blogging space and tried to “balance” my other responsibilities, I truly felt myself drowning. The two main things were ensuring that my child did not notice I was in school; being present for him while being the nerdy academic that I a am at my core. Everything else became secondary and tertiary. I spent less time in the kitchen, less time committing to anything that was not one of my main things, less time hanging with friends. It was a sacrifice; one that I do not regret because it was meant to better the quality of life that I experience with my child. Anything that I can do to improve upon our current lives and is willed by God, I’m doing it! So, I close by assuring you that I’m back … for real this time.
Stay tuned for more stories about my mom life happenings.
Much Love,
Cadacia
